Fail. Win.

So it's that wonderful time of year again...and time for some self-improvement.
I blogged my resolutions last year, thought I'd see how well I did...


1. Be healthier. Lose weight. Boooring but there you are. Er, epicness of failness.
2. Not waste time on silly boys, make more time for non-silly ones. Ahem. Well.
3. Paint more, sleep less. Only illustration stuff, thought about sleep all year.
4. Design like I give a damn. Coz I do. Always.
5. Listen to all the music on my itunes. (I get stuck in my playlist rut) Let's just say the Glee soundtrack may have set me back a bit...
6. Do the things that make me happy. Almost.
7. Be unafraid. I fear less all the time.
8. Work out what I'm doing with my life in 2011. Hmm. 
9. Write my dreams down. Nope.
10. Be happy. Because sometimes misery can be less effort. No comment.


So all in all, absolute failure. But I've got other things I'm proud of...
1. I've now been a vegetarian for just over 8 months. It can be an absolute pain, but I'm so happy to finally be acting on an issue that is so close to me.
2. I'm trying to kick people out. You don't deserve anything from me anymore.
3. I finished my degree...I finally have my BA in Communications Management :) Fancy words for making pretty pictures.


My adventure's just beginning. Happy New Years xx

Overexposed

I like you Christmas. You put me in a good mood.

Another self-indulgent blog post

(Most of the arrogance, ignorance and shallowness is my own anyway.)

Love is for the birds

This is the girl from Birds Closet.

 She writes in Polish and has the best wardrobe in the world.

 I love her despite the Curlz used in her header...

(If I could, I'd dress like you do everyday)

On the brain

All I can think about at the moment is packaging...making things pretty and awesome while not killing the planet is harder than you would think. These people got it right...

x

Big girl

So I finally turned 21...took long enough! Had an awesome party filled with moustaches, friends and bubbles...

My lovely girls bringing Movember in in style

Vega! I'm going to miss all these pretty faces

My amazing grandparents and a rather tipsy me

Fatties

My daddy and me :)

xx

Happened once, happened twice, three times maybe four

Oh my goodness

I could just die.

Surprise surprise

Things have been out of my control lately.
This is new to me.

Glandular fever=
I did not finish Vega today.
I can't intern yet.
Missing out.
Many a Jerseylicious episode.

I guess I can't do it all. Surprise.
X

This week.

I'd sleep through the end of the world if I could.

This is just to let you know

That I am almost out of hibernation.
So to the 2 people who actually read this, lie in wait ;)

In other news, Brand Challenge is nearly over...

xx

Better luck next time

I don't have much to say.
I've lost my voice, literally, and my brain seems to have followed suit.


"Do you always think this much, Charlie?"
"Is that bad?" I just wanted someone to tell me the truth.
"Not necessarily. It's just that sometimes people use thought to not participate in life."
"Is that bad?"
"Yes."
- The Perks of Being a Wallflower


So much can change in 7 days.


This Kitsune Rouge is going into hibernation.
Goodnight.

Thank you.

Today, while searching for paper, I came across the card my mom made me when I was baptised. It had this e. e cummings poem written on it, which I have always loved. It never fails to put me in a good mood.

i thank You God for most this amazing
day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything
wich is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any- lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

Every word, every thought, every sound

So since this is my 100th post, I thought that I needed to post something suitably epic. Which is easy enough, since on Saturday we went to see BILLY TALENT!!!! *insert girly screams and throwing of underwear*

So ridiculously amazing, we all left on a sweaty high.

Some of Kim's photos...

Amazingness. There are no words.

Happy faces

Jamie and Kimbo

Wide eyes

Grant gets involved ;)

So hardcore.

Ah the excitement!

Grant being a playa

Best. Night. Ever. 

x

Introspection

Yesterday I crawled back into bed and lay there with my knees to my chest.
The curtains were parted just enough that the light was making an imprint on the inside of my eyelids.
I think too much, always have. And so I lay there and thought some more.

I thought of moths and how I have always loved them. Always rooting for the underdog.
I thought of all the work I have to do and how paralysed I feel.
I thought of the line between wearing your heart on your sleeve and keeping things inside.
I thought of the end of the year.
I thought of the end of Vega.
I thought of spindles and sleep.
I thought of how a fox could love a bird, but she would always drag him down to her level.
I thought of puzzle pieces left in the ground.
I thought of  you.
I thought of skin.
I thought of living up to expectations.

I listened to the rain.
I felt warm inside my ugly jersey.
I said nothing.
I slept.

Goodnight.
x

Lalala

Things that made me happy this week...


1. Singing in the car on the way to college. Florence and the Machine...I adore you already.
2. Junk collecting with Lisaloo.
3. Kalk Bay with some of my favourites.
4. A certain boy. (Stop stalking me ;))
5. Kim's honest-to-god cupcakes.
6. Veggie chicken nuggets that taste exactly like the real thing! KFC replacement ftw!
7. Blowing bubbles around Lisa's complex
8. Have I mentioned you already? K you again.
9. The Fantastic Mr Fox. Makes my week.

I don't have a 10th. I'm non-conformist like that. 
xx

Dumdeedum

Things I have learnt this week

1. I am not a minimalist designer.
2. Only 2% of the world's population are redheads.
3. Massimo Vignelli is a lot of things, and over rated is one of them.
4. I really want to be happy.
5. It is possible to show someone a lot of who you are in 3 days.
6. One should check that one's allowance really is in before attempting to buy sushi on debit card.
7. Justin is a handy friend to have should one forget point number 6.
8. I am easily distracted.
9. Gnocchi tastes goooood.

That is all.

Love you liefie

It was my Lisa's 21st in the holidays. Without her I would be a very lonely Viscommer.

We ate veggie burgers.

And cupcakes.

And drank cocktails with rosemary in them.

And celebrated one amazing girl.

Love you darling.

xx

(This is the book I made her, pictures stolen off Lisa's blog)

A random.

1. Ridin' in my Car- She & Him
2. VCR- The XX
3. 40 Day Dream- Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes
4. Running up that Hill- Placebo
5. In the Waiting Line- Zero 7

5 songs that are in my head.

(You're weird and I like it.)

That is all for now.

Things I do not care for.

Fuck today. And feeling kuk. And not having time to wash my hair. Fuck being cut off in traffic. Fuck being broke. Fuck trying to be the best. Fuck never being able to say fuck. Fuck feeling lonely. Fuck watching PVR on a Friday night and wondering why you aren't out having fun. Fuck planning. Fuck people who wear fur. Fuck the fashion magazines that tell you to wear a skinned dead animal whilst simultaneously making you feel like shit. Fuck being ugly. Fuck having to be around beautiful people all day. Fuck loving no one. Fuck loving everyone. Fuck wondering if God exists. Fuck trying to find parking. Fuck always worrying about money. Fuck never spending any time on the supposedly important things. Fuck you. Fuck never ever being good enough for anything. Fuck high-fashion photoshoots. Fuck we-are-awesome. Fuck not being awesome. Fuck never loving anything that someone hasn't loved before. Fuck the nightmares. Fuck the dreams. Fuck being hideous. Fuck faded hair. Fuck giving it my all. Fuck the fact that in our world it is more socially acceptable to eat dead things than not to. Fuck looking the same as everyone else, just not as good. Fuck being socially awkward. Fuck feeling guilty. Fuck losing my religion. Fuck trying to prove myself. Fuck wanting to sleep all the time. Fuck waking up at 6 am. Fuck not being able to sleep. Fuck being a cliche. Fuck trying to change. Fuck those 4 am moments. Fuck crying. Fuck being happy. Fuck being sad. Fuck the hipsters. Fuck making it look so easy. Fuck Vega bathrooms. Fuck advertising. Fuck losing your faith. Fuck always wanting to be somewhere else. Fuck being trapped. Fuck being idealistic.